That's what I've become. Everyone says not to do it, to come to them, but all you get is anger, and you become the boy who cried wolf. It will take every fiber of my being to keep from committing suicide sitting at home alone for the next few months, because I know I'll be at home alone. No friends or family that care. I have you guys but in a crisis all I do is threaten to do it and end up crying. I never follow through. If I do it I'm just going to have to do it and not tell anyone. Not talk to anyone. I can't come here before the thoughts anymore. I can't be the boy who cried wolf anymore. Everyone just ends up angry, and each time less and less care and attention is given to a crisis that is just as painful today as it was a year ago.