I noticed that there is a cycle that I go through. 1. Depression because of a consciquence to an action. 2. Unbelivable anger. 3. Suicidal thoughts. 4. Acceptence. Don't know how to skip steps 2 and 3. It's like the serenity prayer, cmon pray it with me: God, grant me the serenity To accept the things I cannot change; The courage to change the things that I can; And the wisdom to know the difference. For me it was marijuana I ask god everyday not to let me get high ever again. People told me not to smoke marijuana I didn't listen. I experimented sexualy, same story I feel like a sissy for saying it, and now there are consciquences that I cannot handle. The more people I tell the worse I feel, I just can't accept that I'm bisexual. It's very dificult. I'm hoping that when I get of the 'high', maybe in a couple of months I will feel better. I hope I will make it becaues I see a storm brewing of suicidal thoughts and planed suicide.