Well. Basically heartbreak once more. What can i say. We are just prolonging the inevitable. We meet and confort each other, only to then say goodbye. Each time i return i am more depressed. I know that one day he will end it. One day i know we will say goodbye forever. Although he won't know that. Ither this winter or the next, or on holiday in another colder country i will attempt to take my life. <Mod edit: Methods> I have no reason left to exisit except to love and be loved. But i am afraid that this time i fear i will be all burnt out with just a cold centre remaining. If i am found will he learn of my death? I do not want to hurt anyone. But unless i take myself out of the equation i will meet more people and possibley form more attachments. I dont want to hurt anyone else. I dont think there is a reason anymore. I really don't. I just want to sleep forever. In the darkness.