So I did something for which I ought to feel quite bad. but i dont... yet i feel bad for not feeling bad ???? the fuck is wrong with me, i keep catching me myself trying to get intoxicated on whatever is at hand, i caught myself driving to the liquor store at 2pm today (stopped) and atm thinking of downing something that will fuck me up for hours. i just feel like im spiraling down down down. but i guess i deserve it for being a shitty person, huh?