I really dont want to do it, but I am pretty fucked up you guys. I was working with my worker a few days ago when he was cutting firewood with a chainsaw at a job we are doing and when I got close to him bending down picking up firewood I hoped <Mod edit - method>
I dropped off some firewood today for free at a person we know house and there was a girl that was around 4 years old next door in a white dress and I heard her say things like thats my boyfriend and <Mod edit - inappropriate content> and I heard her grandma say stop doing that and <Mod edit - inappropriate content>. I could not look over at the other house while I was dropping off the firewood.
Please help me you guys I don't know if these things are real or in my head. I really want to die. I can't live like this anymore.
I am 40 and I feel my end is coming soon I dont want to have children because I dont want my bloodline to continue. I dont want to bring a child into this world with some of the problems I am having.
I feel I need to die to put an end to this. I feel soon I am going to face darkness when I kill myself and I am somewhat ascared for it. It is maybe sooner than better that I have to go since I did so many bad things when I was younger and seen and heard so much.
I dropped off some firewood today for free at a person we know house and there was a girl that was around 4 years old next door in a white dress and I heard her say things like thats my boyfriend and <Mod edit - inappropriate content> and I heard her grandma say stop doing that and <Mod edit - inappropriate content>. I could not look over at the other house while I was dropping off the firewood.
Please help me you guys I don't know if these things are real or in my head. I really want to die. I can't live like this anymore.
I am 40 and I feel my end is coming soon I dont want to have children because I dont want my bloodline to continue. I dont want to bring a child into this world with some of the problems I am having.
I feel I need to die to put an end to this. I feel soon I am going to face darkness when I kill myself and I am somewhat ascared for it. It is maybe sooner than better that I have to go since I did so many bad things when I was younger and seen and heard so much.