I hate to see others hurting,
it makes me cry for them.
But, maybe I'm really crying for me....
everyday. so many tears.
really tired of the tears.
why does life have to hurt so much?
thats all I want to know.
I let the hurt stop now.
I tried so hard to learn how to play.
I don't want to be in this game no mo.
The rules always changed on me, I couldn't learn how to do it.
I thought I was doing acceptable.
I was wrong. as usual.
I don't care how painful it is to die,
its a risk I'll take now.
it can't be more devastating than all these holes in that organ called the "heart"
you say don't do it.
you say people do care.
LIES
I've learned people lie with no guilt or shame. fine.
But it does hurt, maybe someone should tell them.
no one will notice,
no one will be bothered by the disappearance
it will be a collective sigh relief for
ALL
Then, maybe they will have a wild party to celebrate.
In heaven there is no more saddness, no more tears.
I will get there somehow
it makes me cry for them.
But, maybe I'm really crying for me....
everyday. so many tears.
really tired of the tears.
why does life have to hurt so much?
thats all I want to know.
I let the hurt stop now.
I tried so hard to learn how to play.
I don't want to be in this game no mo.
The rules always changed on me, I couldn't learn how to do it.
I thought I was doing acceptable.
I was wrong. as usual.
I don't care how painful it is to die,
its a risk I'll take now.
it can't be more devastating than all these holes in that organ called the "heart"
you say don't do it.
you say people do care.
LIES
I've learned people lie with no guilt or shame. fine.
But it does hurt, maybe someone should tell them.
no one will notice,
no one will be bothered by the disappearance
it will be a collective sigh relief for
ALL
Then, maybe they will have a wild party to celebrate.
In heaven there is no more saddness, no more tears.
I will get there somehow