the end of the road

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by poodle, Jan 22, 2009.

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  1. poodle

    poodle Member

    I feel detached from life

    I have tried asking for help, but am not very good at it.

    I think if I'm truly honest, I'd like to be back in hospital where you are locked in and watched.

    But that's not going to happen.

    I've had enough. This is the end of the road.
  2. Epical Taylz

    Epical Taylz Well-Known Member

    may i ask what happened to make you get this way
  3. Sadeyes

    Sadeyes Staff Alumni

    Can we help you get services by collaborating upon how to ask and what questions there might be???Please give it a try...who knows, you might become a great advocate for yourself! big hugs, J
  4. poodle

    poodle Member

    I have Borderline Personality Disorder and depression and I can't cope with my illnesses anymore.

    I just want out.

    I am under the care of the Crisis team. I phoned them earlier this afternoon and told them I wasn't safe. They said to take my night time meds early and distract. Which is what I have been doing. But I still want to die.

    I don't seem to be able to verbalise how I am feeling. I get worried they will think I'm manipulating them and that they won't take me seriously.

    I guess I am angry. Angry that this illness takes me over and ruins my life.

    Thanks for your offer of help though.

    I'd like to say that I want help, but I don't. I want to die.

    Again, thanks.
  5. pensive1981

    pensive1981 Well-Known Member

    Well you're here. That's a good start, something you can build on.
  6. Petal

    Petal SF dreamer Staff Member Safety & Support SF Supporter

    :hug: Poodle

    I'm sorry you're feeling so low.

    Try keeping your mind occupied with something you enjoy to distract yourself from the suicidal thoughts. Do you have your family to help you? :hug:
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