So this is finally the end. I've had it with fake people and fake friends. Today I deleted my facebook account for good and thought that if I committed then none of those people would miss me. I'm unemployed and was told I would be guaranteed a job, but I have to wait. It's a construction project, but I didn't get a call yet and I'm growing tired of waiting. I had to move back in my parent's house because I have no money and nowhere to go. While I was in school I was going to the gym a lot and keeping in shape, trying to keep my depression down. There's no gym here, and I haven't been exercising much. Every day I feel myself getting fatter and fatter. i'm getting more and more depressed because I have absolutely nothing to do but wait for nothing. I've concluded that most girls are shallow twits who only want guys that are going to smack them around a bit. Guys who have lots of muscle and who pretty much only think of themselves. I'm going to be single forever onward and there's nothing I can do about it only put myself out of my misery. My friends are dwindling as the months pass, and I haven't been able to make more because people are very reserved and are in a clique with their own friends, therefore reluctant to let anyone else in their life. I had friends but they coudn't handle my depression so they cut me off, including a close friend who I adored and loved so much. I made every effort to ensure our friendship would last, but I had feelings for her and things slowly fell apart. So it's my fault I ended all these friendships. It's been almost a year and she still won't talk to me. Oh well, hopefully she will do something when I leave a message saying I'm going to be dead by midnight. In a world full of fake people, and fake friends, who wants to live here anymore? Definitely not me.