Hello~ I am sorry I keep posting I just really feel like killing myself right now. I feel okay during the day but at night I can't take it anymore. I don't want to live like this where each night I have to fight to keep from killing myself. I am very tired. I am so tired. I can't fight anymore. Please, I am so sorry I really need help. I know part of it is I have been drinking but I don't feel like I can stop that either. I am so desperate. If anyone has any ideas, please let me know. Again, I am so sorry as this is my fault and my fault alone I just can't take anymore. Thank You.