The end?

Discussion in 'Help Me! I Need to Talk to Someone.' started by GiveMeWings, Jan 22, 2010.

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  1. GiveMeWings

    GiveMeWings Account Closed

    I'm giving up on everything that reminds me of life.

    It is not beautiful or precious, not to me.

    At least not anymore.

    I probably sound silly and I know I am.

    But I just need to let go of life and all that reminds me of it.

    I hate life.

    And everything about it.

    And I don't know why I'm leaving spaces or writing that way.

    And I don't know why it killed me so much inside when I heard he has found somebody new.

    I can barely hear my heart beating and I can barely see the computer screen. It's blury.

    And I don't know why I'm this way when I'm supposed to be happy.

    Happy.

    I don't know what that word means anymore.

    I don't know what miserable means anymore.

    I just know that what I'm feeling is unbearable.

    And it hurts so much inside that I feel like my heart has been disconnected from my body.

    And I close my eyes and all I can see is how peaceful it'll be once all's gone for me.

    The thoughts tempting.

    I need to find peace.

    I need to sink into nothingness.

    So that nothing will remind of me of life and its pain.

    I just don't want to do anything with life anymore.

    Be safe.
     
  2. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    I have been down that road many times wrote a poem heavy heart it hurts i know there seems like no hope left no energy to even get out of bed. Keep posting okay keep printing the pain out rant vent do anything but just hang on okay Peace will come I hope you can reach out for support for help crisis does help and so does the Good Samaritans call hospital get into help there
    Medication with therapy are the best it is helping some. Just keep reaching out okay please the pain will lessen just take one day at a time take care.
     
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