I found a way I can finally go. It's supposed to be relatively painless, no mess either. That's why I haven't shot myself through the head yet. Wouldn't want to force someone to clean up all that. My exit is supposed to end in a coma state, so a nice peaceful way out. I don't know if I'll be able to go through with it, but.....just in case I do, and just in case it works, I wanted to say goodbye. It was a pleasure to meet everyone on here. Especially you, Mercedez. I think I'll miss you most of all.