The feelings have reared their ugly head again.

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by Spikey, Oct 11, 2006.

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  1. Spikey

    Spikey Senior Member

    The title says it all. Not that anyone would give a shit about me.
    I'm not going to do anything. Just how I am feeling.
  2. ~CazzaAngel~

    ~CazzaAngel~ Staff Alumni

    I give more than a shit. I am on MSN now if you need me. :hug:

    Love ya girl,
  3. Sadeyes

    Sadeyes Staff Alumni

    Sorry you are feeling so rough right now, but we are here if you want to share...big hugs
  4. ~CazzaAngel~

    ~CazzaAngel~ Staff Alumni

    I hope you are okay....I'll message you later.......stay strong.....I love ya hun. :hug:

    :hug: :hug: :hug:
  5. resistance

    resistance Staff Alumni

    Hun you called me the other day but I was asleep and I missed the call, I didn't have any credit at the time to contact you back either. I do care about you and I hope you're feeling a little better today. Drop me a message sometime today to let me know you're okay. :hug:
  6. Jenny

    Jenny Staff Alumni

    Sorry you're feeling bad again.. if you want to talk about what's going on for you or how you're feeling, then please feel free.. we do care, i hope you can see that even just from the replies in this post :hug:
  7. StPatty

    StPatty Member

    Hey there, this is only my first post. In case you can't tell I'm in a low mood to be looking around suicide forums... I feel exactly like that: bad feelings are rearing their heads again. They just come back uninvited. I had the worst year of my life last year, (I try to to call it other things sometimes, but really, it sucked). I guess I'm lucky because my family would do anything for me, they helped me make it into a NOLS semester in The Middle of Nowhere, Western Australia. Without all this modern information technology to constantly remind me of everything that bothered me... I became my old self for awhile. The rest of my group even elected me to lead them for a week without our instructors in the King Leopold Mountain range... It was great. But now I'm back and everything comes back to haunt me sometimes. I'm not suicidal, but I have no inspiration, and don't feel much reason to live... life isn't so bad that it's unbearable, but I have trouble finding a reason to try anymore.

    At its worst the depression makes me want to die, but this is my way out of those feelings: I'm a philosopher at heart like most people, so I find out about other people's philosophies. Usually, the best ones are hard to disagree with even when you're depressed. I always thought therapy was only useful if the therapist's thoughts were something I had never thought of, so I've come to really appreciate the few that can do that.

    Where I'm going with this is that in Australia I read "The Alchemist" by Paulo Coelho. So did all 6 of the other students and two of the instructor/guides. Of all the help I've come across fighting these feelings, it was the best. It's not a book meant to treat depression, but it's sold something like... 60 million copies in 40-something languages... just the two-page preface made me rethink what the most saddening thing in my life meant to me. It made me realize that I loved the girl I did because in her I saw the things I loved most about myself. I got hooked and read the whole book in two days, and copied long parts in my journal.

    For me, no single new idea can fight off sadness. It takes new ones, constantly, or new applications of old ones. That is, at least, until I find more satisfaction out of the effort I put into life. These ideas give me hope to hold me over. That's my 2 cents and if you take my advice and read it, maybe you'd do me a favor and talk to me about things you learned later.
  8. gentlelady

    gentlelady Staff Alumni

    Spikey, I am sorry to hear you are feeling so low again. You can bet that a great many people do care whether you are here or not. You are a great person and I know I am not alone in my thoughts. Keep your head held high and your chin up. We are here for you anytime. :grouphug:
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