well, most people who know me and my past this day has been a long time coming. ive had enough of things getting on top of me and constantly feeling crap. i have put my fighting gloves on and im gonna win. no longer will my past dictate my future, i have a lot to look forward to, i have 4 great kids who in the future will give me weddings (omg) and hopefully grandkids (omfg), i will be there for them always and a husband who loves me very much. i cant change whats happened in the past but i can, and will change and shape mine and my familys future. i know i have friends here, many who have gone to many lengths to help me, for that im grateful and believe me it was all taken on board, now its time to put it into action. :love: sf.