I had my first attempt sunday night. It was after coming on here. All i had access to was my <edit moderator total eclipse method>. started on my right wrist, got four cuts in, when i noticed i was light-headed and my left hand was tingling. I fainted, and when i woke up the next morning i cried my eyes out. I'd failed. Even my body wanted me to suffer, wanted me to be fucked up. My mum saw the cuts and asked if i was ashamed. I lied and said yes, when i wanted to smile and trace them all. They're a reminder to cut deeper next time.