Hi, this is the first poem I've ever posted on this website before. I'm a 17 year old girl and a back story (feel free to skip to the poem) to this poem is that I was best friends with this super religious guy a couple years older than me. He was in the same grade as me though (went to the middle east for two years with no schooling) and we became close as soon as he came to our school. After about 4 months we started having a "thing". I wanted a relationship, he didn't. He was constantly hypocritical because of how religious he was and he always put the blame on me for things as simple as kissing. He was abusive. We stopped talking after a year and a half and it was very difficult for me. But I met this other guy and we got along great. After 7 months of being best friends, we became bf and gf. It was my first real relationship and it really helped me get over the abuse I went through. About two months after I wrote this poem (here comes the happy ending...) my bf confronted the religious guy and the guy wrote me an apology note explaining why he abandoned me and accepting that he did abuse me and was only thinking of himself. Happy ending. But here's my poem now, sorry for the long introduction! The Garden Eyes are the window to the soul they say, But when I look into yours, Not often, In fact, rarely, I see my past I see a garden where my happiness once grew, But no longer thrives It's a dead place now, I was playing games in a dark garden And now I see fragments of a man I once knew Whenever I'm forced to look at you I was abandoned when I needed you most The knife you threw in my back, It must be poisoned I can feel the poison and venom in my veins The desire for revenge The desire for you to feel the pain you made me feel You cut me up for over a year But I wear my scars like badges For the war I once fought The same lies repeated from your mouth for over a year You were a mechanical satanic man Your grip on me was more than I could bare More than anyone should ever have to I couldn't feel for a while I was left in the garden This wasn't Adam and Eve's Satan is all that thrived here And he wouldn't let me leave You tried to spread your seed But i exposed your lies Your hypocrisy You're just a wicked man A man without a heart You're a fake Your soul is as corrupt as those you hate I use to see love in your eyes But that's all bullshit now Complete and utter bullshit You're just a coward You're a manipulator I don't know why I ever loved you But it's alright. The venom and poison have seeped out of my veins This is my last poem that I'll write about you My last effort to let others see The demon that's right inside you And i won't even say deep Deep inside you wouldn't be right, Because it's right at the surface Just itching under the skin And not many see it But I did Now I shake when i know I'm somewhere that you'll soon be And hearing your name makes me feel sick with weak knees And my brain, oh The memories they make me cry I've hated myself for so long You made me almost die But I digress, I think you're disgusting A sack of bones that keep preaching A sad excuse of a man And I feel almost bad for the new girl who've you got under your hand Because even though she knows what you did to me She's still with you I'm sure you convinced her otherwise Because that's what you like to do Manipulate, to use So I almost feel bad But she will soon know the truth I've moved on To new and better things Somebody who treats me right and loves me Just in time for Spring So now my garden grows anew And happiness again thrives New things are blooming But our love, It has fully died.