"You can't win, you're useless" hmm those words thats all they are though. Funnily enough i live up to that statement, chronic underachiever, one of those losers your teachers will tell you about. Who had everything then dashed it all away. My world doesn't believe in depression, believes more in "Life is unfair; deal with it" or "Someone has always got it worse than you", "It's just a phase it'll go" hehe my favourite "Just snap out of it". As if they don't think i want to just do that. These statements have put me off posting here as my problems are just so trivial, also stopped me seeking professional help. Don't think i ever will for that matter. Guess i'm that lost cause too. Tried my best trying to sort through it all but i can't, i mean this "phase" has lasted me since well since they thought screaming and hitting would get through to me. I didn't clean my room that time, my fault i'm sorry. The flashbacks come back with every raised voice expecting a "correcting blow" Sometimes.. i really feel i need one, today is no exception. Taste of blood might be nice in my mouth. I'm sorry alright..sorry excuse for a person let alone a "man". My thoughts have wondered a lot. Sorry for whining so much, Al.