Today I've said goodbye to my beloved Ginger. She's been with me for 12 years. I can still remember the first time I met her, it was like a dream come true and love at first sight. I've slept with her in her stable when she's been ill with colic and she's been my best friend. But I haven't been able to ride her since last summer due to anxiety. Since Christmas I haven't been able to go to her yard unaccompanied so had to put her on full livery which is breaking me financially. I've been paying someone to exercise her for me three times a week but she's getting fat, lazy and temperamental. She's still young enough to need more than I can give, it's not fair on her. So today she has gone to live with her new family. I know she'll be looked after and loved as much as I love her. They're going to get her back to full fitness and back into competitions which she loves. But I feel like my heart is breaking.