Is to learn to be yourself again. When you've made the choice to be what they want you to be. to fit their narrow standards, to be "perfect" for them... and then it ends. where are you then? well you're where i am now. i've been here for over a year and its been tough, some days i think i'm winning, some days it feels like i've lost me forever. Sometimes I still avert my eyes if a scantly clad female is on the screen of the tv or a movie. that one makes for weird looks from your male friends. I still find others self harm to be a "Normal" thing. it doesn't bother me in the least. i've patched up and cleaned my share of others mess. there's more but i wont bore you with a long drawn out thing tale of woe and all that stuff. If i can say anything, its to any of you who are heading to where i've been and where i am. its not worth it. to change who you are on any major level, just so some girl or boy will want to be with you more. They should want to be with you for who you are. and even if you change. the real you shows through. and even if it ends and it doesn't... who are you then. not you but someone else. someone who you may not really even know. and since we've all heard a MILLION times that we need to learn to accept and love ourselves... How do you learn to love yourself when you're a stranger? Think about it.