As I was growing up, I have faced a number of challenges that drove me toward edge. They were mostly psychological challenges. First it was severe depression which literally made me endure extreme anxieties, depressions, panic attack, ADD as well as loneliness. I fought on believing it is unfortunate part of life and hoping that life will get better. During those mentally turbulous times, I always maintained personal conviction which is to stay away from drugs, alcohol, tobacco, sex. I could easily have turned to one of those to relieve stresses but I never did. Now as if I haven't suffered enough, I am having to endure a lust problem which has given me as much pains as severe depression if not worse. And I haven't even overcome my depression yet. Today, I looked up sky and said to myself, "The Heaven must be against me. There is no reason anyone deserves to go through things like this. Is this how my life is supposed to be after all I have tried?" That is how I truly feel deep inside. Things that shouldn't happen in anyone's life have happened in my life. Things that no one should go through have already happened in my life. I honestly don't know how to go about living a life that is full of mental tortures, torments, mental abuses, sufferings. The Heaven must be against me.