One moment I am fine, then someone says one little thing or something minor happens and I get pushed over the edge so fast and am suddenly suicidal. I realize how much of a failure I am and how I can't do anything right and how life is worthless. Then something else happens and I am fine again. I don't know what to do anymore how can a person be so fragile and function in society. The wrong thing is said it doesn't even need to be directed at me and I'll be at my throat with a knife. I end up this way and then I make stupid impulsive decisions based on how I feel right now and it screws me later always. I even know I do it but I just can't stop when I feel like that I can't see. The odd little thing will ruin my day, make me suicidal even if it is some retarded minor failure that makes me see how much I fail overall. As rare as it is I am actually managing to cry right now, because of those stupid little things and all I can think about is cutting my wrists until the floors are painted. I need to just be killed this isn't all worth it. I ALWAYS screw EVERYTHING up.