Everywhere I turn there are people having fun together. Couples doing Christmas shopping. Friends doing things together. The holidays are a time for friends to have fun and spend time together. I went out today, and that was all I saw. I can't handle it anymore. I came home and wanted to cry. Even if my family is with me I still feel so alone. So lonely... it hurts so bad. I don't think I can deal with this for much longer. I need to feel cared for. I wouldn't wish this feeling on my worst enemy.