There is an assault on my senses. Sometimes so vicious that all i can do is tell myself i deserve it and accept my punishment. My hearing so sensitive, a few softly spoken words become screams in my ears, torturous words that circle my mind like a shark with a taste for blood. My sight, the views too rich and blinding, a filter that removes the meaning of beauty. Yet to close my eyes i am faced with a space so vast and terrifying that there is no comfort to be found. Touch, my skin unable to contain what's inside it, crawling and writhing with all those under there, begging to be released from the prison of my love. Smell brings back too many memories... a torturous longing. Taste. Rotting and foul like everything else inside me. Organs to soul. I am disgusted by everything that makes me human.