I was born. I have lived. Now as the unforgiving hand of suicide beckons I ask is god to blame. Causality over free will. I had no say over the life that I have led. The pitiful state I have become. Surely a deity set the wheel in motion with full awareness of my tragic fate. Surely God meant for mine and your suffering . A petty criminal would stand trial. Why not the greatest despot of all? People penitence to him. They make me sick. What do you think.