the last day of life!

http://youtu.be/1GU8Ekk8Pbs

Oh how I wish it were the last day of my life.. :sadyes:

I want my son back..:blue:

I want to be with him..:cry2:

if son-in-law is gonna kill us all I wish he'd get it over with.

I can't take anymore pain

:badday: :depressed:

 

Big hugs IV. I couldnt imagine all the pain you must be going through but I am here if you need to talk about anything.

 

IV...I have no words of wisdom, but truly words of caring in the hope you know that I send genuine words of caring and feelings of sadness for what you are going through...I hope you are safe,especially from your son in law...J

 

Big hugs, I'll be thinking of you tonight.

 

Oh IV **hugs**
I hear you sweetie i know you want him back :hug:

I'm sending you loving thoughts and **gentle hugs**, I wish we could comfort you and ease the pain

:console: :hug: ****HUGS****

 

Butterfly, sadeyes, juniper, Kali..thank you for your support..*hugs*

last night I almost 'didn't make it'

got to the selfish point of almost ending my life and didn't give a damn about anyone who would be left behind
why should I care when no one cares back
I'm just here to be used and abused and when I need some comfort ,help, support there's no one
take, take, take and I've nothing left to give

I am so sick and tired of all this strife and pain and loneliness,,etc.
no one cares least of all me :cry2::cry2:

never mind..todays another day.
maybe I'll get the 'courage' to do it today

 

I care...big hugs

 

thanks so much sadeyes...
I found some meds that kept me asleep all day and last night
and again tonight I hope...
I am in a bad way ...
I don't ask for help here much but this is THE BIG ASK
maybe i should be in CRISIS section

 

Hey IV, You know I care!!! You asked me to please stay when I was down, so I am asking you the samething.. Please stay!!! We have become good friends and I would like it to stay that way..I feel your pain and wish I could take it away.. For a mother to loose her son is truely devastateing..Always here for you!!!

 

IV,
Sorry I missed your post.
I'm sorry that you are missing your son.
I'm also sorry that you are struggling.
Have you been feeling any better?
I hope you are feeling better.

I also hope you keep hanging on.

:hug: Autumn

 

thanks guys...meds aren't working tonight ..
don't want to make it through another night
given up the fight today
it's too hard..

 

I feel your pain. I'm in the reversed situation, son having lost Mother. I hope you get through it and somehow find peace. I very much wish for you to oneday be reunited with your son.

 

just letting you know I'm still here and thank you all for you support
I'm considering the hospital but....
*hugs*to you all

 

Hello,

I've read through your posts and understand what you are going through, its important that you are still here and i'm happy to hear that you are considering to go to the hospital.

However you write the word "but", is there something that is stopping you?

 

thank you all so much for your wonderful replies..
they really do help

I spent the afternoon at the hospital (psych services) and they sent me home and are keeping an eye on me for the weekend..

Guess that's all they can do...not a lot really!
*hugs* to you all

 

Hello,

I am happy to hear that you did go to the hospital, did it help at all going to the hospital?

 

I'm pleased to hear you did go i hope they give some support. IV i hope you feel a bit better soon.

 

:grouphug:

I had an appointment with psych services this afternoon and tomorrow the psychologist and tuesday the psychiatrist....
maybe new meds will help...

anythings better than this right??!!
everything is BLACK!!
no white,,no grey...just that big black hole!

 

IV dam i know hun Your son he does not want you to harm yourself and in regards to son inlawyou need to call cops okay get locks changed Your daughter i know lot of your heartache too. Someone needs you hun your grandaughter she must be so afraid Please IV go to hospital and this time don't leave hugs:hugtackles::hugtackles:

 

they've just served intervention order on ex son in law few hours ago..
now the wait for repercussions...
I'm so over this mess that is my life!

anymore stress TE and I will go back to hospital...I know I have to..