the last day of life!

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by IV2010, Jun 22, 2011.

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  1. IV2010

    IV2010 Well-Known Member

    Oh how I wish it were the last day of my life.. :sadyes:

    I want my son back..:blue:

    I want to be with him..:cry2:

    if son-in-law is gonna kill us all I wish he'd get it over with.

    I can't take anymore pain

    :badday: :depressed:
  2. Butterfly

    Butterfly Sim Addict Staff Alumni SF Author SF Supporter

    Big hugs IV. I couldnt imagine all the pain you must be going through but I am here if you need to talk about anything.
  3. Sadeyes

    Sadeyes Staff Alumni

    IV...I have no words of wisdom, but truly words of caring in the hope you know that I send genuine words of caring and feelings of sadness for what you are going through...I hope you are safe,especially from your son in law...J
  4. UsedToBe

    UsedToBe Well-Known Member

    Big hugs, I'll be thinking of you tonight.
  5. 41021

    41021 Banned Member

    Oh IV **hugs**
    I hear you sweetie i know you want him back :hug:

    I'm sending you loving thoughts and **gentle hugs**, I wish we could comfort you and ease the pain

    :console: :hug: ****HUGS****
  6. IV2010

    IV2010 Well-Known Member

    Butterfly, sadeyes, juniper, Kali..thank you for your support..*hugs*

    last night I almost 'didn't make it'

    got to the selfish point of almost ending my life and didn't give a damn about anyone who would be left behind
    why should I care when no one cares back
    I'm just here to be used and abused and when I need some comfort ,help, support there's no one
    take, take, take and I've nothing left to give

    I am so sick and tired of all this strife and pain and loneliness,,etc.
    no one cares least of all me :cry2::cry2:

    never mind..todays another day.
    maybe I'll get the 'courage' to do it today
  7. Sadeyes

    Sadeyes Staff Alumni

    I care...big hugs
  8. IV2010

    IV2010 Well-Known Member

    thanks so much sadeyes...
    I found some meds that kept me asleep all day and last night
    and again tonight I hope...
    I am in a bad way ...
    I don't ask for help here much but this is THE BIG ASK
    maybe i should be in CRISIS section
  9. Stranger1

    Stranger1 Forum Buddy & Antiquities Friend

    Hey IV, You know I care!!! You asked me to please stay when I was down, so I am asking you the samething.. Please stay!!! We have become good friends and I would like it to stay that way..I feel your pain and wish I could take it away.. For a mother to loose her son is truely devastateing..Always here for you!!!
  10. Autumn01

    Autumn01 Well-Known Member

    Sorry I missed your post.
    I'm sorry that you are missing your son.
    I'm also sorry that you are struggling.
    Have you been feeling any better?
    I hope you are feeling better.

    I also hope you keep hanging on.

    :hug: Autumn
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  11. IV2010

    IV2010 Well-Known Member

    thanks guys...meds aren't working tonight ..
    don't want to make it through another night
    given up the fight today
    it's too hard..
  12. soon2bforgotten

    soon2bforgotten Well-Known Member

    I feel your pain. I'm in the reversed situation, son having lost Mother. I hope you get through it and somehow find peace. I very much wish for you to oneday be reunited with your son.
  13. IV2010

    IV2010 Well-Known Member

    just letting you know I'm still here and thank you all for you support
    I'm considering the hospital but....
    *hugs*to you all
  14. Constantinos

    Constantinos Well-Known Member


    I've read through your posts and understand what you are going through, its important that you are still here and i'm happy to hear that you are considering to go to the hospital.

    However you write the word "but", is there something that is stopping you?
  15. IV2010

    IV2010 Well-Known Member

    thank you all so much for your wonderful replies..
    they really do help

    I spent the afternoon at the hospital (psych services) and they sent me home and are keeping an eye on me for the weekend..

    Guess that's all they can do...not a lot really!
    *hugs* to you all
  16. Constantinos

    Constantinos Well-Known Member


    I am happy to hear that you did go to the hospital, did it help at all going to the hospital?
  17. Decode

    Decode Well-Known Member

    I'm pleased to hear you did go i hope they give some support. IV i hope you feel a bit better soon.
  18. IV2010

    IV2010 Well-Known Member


    I had an appointment with psych services this afternoon and tomorrow the psychologist and tuesday the psychiatrist....
    maybe new meds will help...

    anythings better than this right??!!
    everything is BLACK!!
    no white,,no grey...just that big black hole!
  19. total eclipse

    total eclipse SF Friend Staff Alumni

    IV dam i know hun Your son he does not want you to harm yourself and in regards to son inlawyou need to call cops okay get locks changed Your daughter i know lot of your heartache too. Someone needs you hun your grandaughter she must be so afraid Please IV go to hospital and this time don't leave hugs:hugtackles::hugtackles:
  20. IV2010

    IV2010 Well-Known Member

    they've just served intervention order on ex son in law few hours ago..
    now the wait for repercussions...
    I'm so over this mess that is my life!

    anymore stress TE and I will go back to hospital...I know I have to..
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