So my band is playing a very special show. Not sure when and where yet. There is a song I wrote in January of '08 called "Where Are You." It is the most perfect and beautiful thing in my life. It is very personal; written for an ex-girlfriend who I am still and can't imagine ever not being in love with. It is half an hour long, and we are playing it in it's entirety. She will be there. The song includes voicemails from her and is interspersed with quotes from Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, all of which will be played during the show. It will be the last perfect moment I can get in this life. The perfect ending to this perfect moment would be my suicide. The last show. How beautiful. I can smash all my equipment, then destroy myself as well. Of course not right after the show... I'll drive off to my favorite spot in the town I used to live in... gather all my supplies, and then off to a better place.