I had hoped that my Bipolar would simply die with me but sadly today I learned that is not to be. My 18 year old was placed on a pych hold/suicide watch today after a violent manic episode followed by a rigorous voiceing of wanting to kill herself. She also has been self medicating for some time with alcohol and was arrested origanally for public drunkeness. I feel so useless right now, this comes during a time when I have been sliding into depression and suicidallity myself. My family recently lost a member (my 3 year old granddaughter died in a fire in Nov.) and now I am very scared that we may loose another.