So I come to this site not because I want to live but because I want to want to live. I simply have no inclination to live right now and feel as if I'm melting away. Based on my logic, I realy should be dead by now, but i suppose human tendancy leads me away from it. I realy feel as if theres nothing worth living for. I can't feel truly love and I can't truly feel hate. I simply exist just to wade through the shit river that is life. Even if i were destined to do somthing truly great like cure cancer or somthing, It would be nothing compared to the fact that no one is immortal. thusly if i can find nothing "worth it" in life then i should just save myself the trouble and die now. I respect the fact that many people want to live life or see somthing that I don't, but thats just it. I don't enjoy life. For some life gets better and they enjoy it. but i have a feeling im one of those people who just won't and have no intention of dragging myself through cement to go some cheap prize.