I am. Are You? I've never had a girl friend, I'm 19. I've had 3 rejections. I've never had any close friends ever since grade 6. I've had 2 failed suicide attempts. I cried many times over spring break, especially before and after valentines day. I'm scared, that I'm going to be alone for the rest of my life. I want to die, because I don't want to see that lonely future coming true. I have minor OCD. I've got anxiety attacks, and SA. I stutter when I'm too nervous. I've never hang out much, like never ever. I don't know how to speak to girls..because every time I do, I get a flash back of the past where I really messed up. I'm so lonely... ... I wish I can get over the past, and meet some girl that would understand me, and won't turn me away for being the sensitive guy I am. I wish for a lot of things to not happen to me, but slowly, its becoming a reality. ... So all I can do is cry, over and over again, every night until I fall asleep.