So its been a matter of months since i've harmed myself. And I'm really proud of it, but it seems like with everyday that passes I crave it more just because it's been so long. It like the reasoning in my head is saying comon you've done so good one slip up wont hurt. That and Ive never seen any point to stop self harming I stopped getting in trouble for it and I had gotten really good at hidding it so the whole bad beahivors stop when consequences are great enough thing didnt stop me because there were virtually no consequences to my cutting. Its getting so hard lately not to just go all out and cut everywhere like I used to because Its getting colder and I wouldnt have to worry about showing my arms.