The mass

Discussion in 'Suicidal Thoughts and Feelings' started by damaged, Apr 15, 2007.

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  1. damaged

    damaged Active Member

    The mass takes over my body I don't know who I am now.My life seems to be coming to a end if only corage would come at the right time.I am loved by a good woman and she nows my pain but can't help me no one can.I've seen death at the time it was in the room right there with me and was not scared.He was a clean cut nice looking man with cold eyes.He took the one I loved I couldn't fight.As she bled and the baby left I felt hatred thats never left.To everyone it was nature to me it was my spawn.I believe in god but know he won't help me not even to die.
     
  2. Sadeyes

    Sadeyes Staff Alumni

    Hi Damaged...how sad you sound and how hopeless...where did this come from and how can we help? Please PM me if you want someone to talk to...many of us here understand these feelings...please tell us what is going on...it may help to express it so that you are assured you are not alone...be safe and big hugs
     
  3. damaged

    damaged Active Member

    How sweet of you to listen but I'm already dead it's just a matter of time.I feel better to tell you becouse you don't know me.My time is short plain and simple I know alot of people would be better the sooner it happens.I was never giving a chance,grew up with abuse and it's still with me.My parents were nuts so how could I not be the same.I seen dead bodys my mom hit by a car and her head going thru a windshield.I watched my baby abort itself and was supposed to be ok with that.We all got problems but mine are building to somthing I can't controll.I'm past help now,only death will bring peace to me and i'm not scared at all.I hope theres nothing when my eyes shut forever.I'm sorry for spilling this here but who eles could I tell.Doctors don't care and everyone eles says it'll get better but they all lie.I'll leave no trace of nothing when i'm gone and no one will truly care I know better.But thanks for this place.gone and forgotton.
     
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