I still have no goals. Even if I did, so what? The energy to carry them out is simply not there. I'm just able to go to work and do basic things around the house. My social life is nonexistent. I try online groups for depression and loneliness, but end up leaving as I feel isolated from all the groups. Therapy is a no-go as I lack insurance and a way to get there on my own. And somehow suicide is supposed to be the worst thing I could do? Please. Taking my own life would mean no misery, no envy, and no more failures.