I knew a few months ago that I wasn't going to make it. I obtained how I've wanted to go out and have had it for the past month. Tomorrow, I clean my apartment and get rid of a few things. I worry about doing the delayed email to the cops, because they can't just get into the foyer here. I'm wondering if it is better just to go to a hotel. I know I am going to hurt people, but I want it to be as easy as possible. I feel sad in the way that I don't feel sad anymore. Strange feeling. Like I want to go home, but I realize there is no home to go to.