Its finally here, the final night. The final night in which I must suffer alone. Its funny how a close brush with death can make you change your life. Now I am wide awake, partly by fear, and party by the fact that I pretty much threw up my stomach, and that im covered with my own bile. But besdies that I think I am doing the right thing, for although my life will never be the same, atleast I am finally getting the help I needed a year ago. Hospital here I come.