I've never told anyone besides my boyfriend that this time last year I was raped. I had just gotten home and was walking to the door when he grabbed me and dragged me to a veils near the house. I never went to the doctor or told the cops because I didn't want people to know. I now am no long am able to go outside when it is dark out or even be inside with out a light on. I even sleep with the tv on. At first my boyfriend was very supportive and would talk to me on the phone when I had to go outside to go to work. Now he works 2nd shift and can't do that. It has really put a stress on our relationship. We used to be normal and be able to touch and stuff but now I can't. It feels very uncomfortable even though I know he didn't do anything. We both want to get married and have kids but im not sure if its possible. I don't know how we can have a normal marriage if we can't connect. We fight all the time about it because he has the urge and I can't do anything. Its effecting me alot because it is the year anniversary and my relationship is falling apart.