After reviewing what I have learned about surviving a major suicide attempt, I am now feeling great remorse to what I did to my body. I am only 44 yrs old and I'm feeling my mind is going and my body is slowly catching up with symptoms that older people usually experience. I really did a number on my body this time and I'm living to regret it. I'm paying the consequences of my actions and I feel so sad that I put myself in this predicament. What a waste of life. I threw it all away. I had so much potential. And now, all I do everyday is being haunted by my memories of my actions that led me up till now. I feel great despair but I can't change back time and wish I can find hope again.