Dont know wether hanging is the best idea ive had. I can see the rope, its all i think about now. Hanging from the tall ash at the bottom of my garden. I look at the ash and wait for spring but its always the last tree to get its leaves. Winter is bleak. Ive made the noose i feel it round my neck. years ago my brother tried to hang himself and was cut down out the tree, they put him in a mental hospital. When he finally made it out, i told him how selfish he was and what a coward he was. I dont fear death, I dont feel selfish, this will be my decision. I am no coward, I just wish to die.