Hello , I've been having a hard time figuring out how to say what I want to say so I hope that this makes sense. Maybe some piece of this will make sense to someone other than me. I hope so. Recently, I have lost a loved one, lost a teacher to a terminal illness, and have spent a lot of time with thinking about what it must be like for my friend who is living with a terminal illness. The one thing that these people all have in common is that they have had no control over what has happened to them. This does not make coping with their loss-or impending loss any easier. All of these people have contributed to the person that I am today, and I am so grateful that I have known them. Unlike many of you reading this, I have never attempted but I've wanted to die and think about how it could happen and how it wouldn't be so sad. Then the rational side of my self knows what it would do to the ones who love me. I don't see myself as someone people should miss, but I could never hurt the ones I love by ending my life. There are so many people who never have the chance to do the things they wanted to do because they have died. I know that because I am alive I can do so many things. I can do things to honor those who were unable to do them. I love someone who on many occassions has tried to take their own life. Everyday that I don't spend with person, I am so scared that they will leave me here to try to live my life without them. I don't think I would ever be able to enjoy everything I will experience if that person isn't with me. Just thinking about the horrific possibility that the worst case scenario might one day become my reality makes me physically ill. It makes me cry. It makes me cry a lot. So many of you are fortunate enough to have people who love you and care about you and would be unimaginabley devestated that they will never have a chance to talk to you, see you, or feel you ever again. No matter how alone you feel and how much you think no one would miss you or that the world would be better off without you-YOU ARE WRONG. Anyone is welcome to argue that, but I hope deep down inside you can find that light (it might be really dim!) to realize that "Each life has its place." That means everyone. Every last person on this earth. You might not know it yet, but there are things for you to contribute to this world and if you don't the world will miss out! I'm not sure what will happen to me after I die. But I know what I can do while I'm alive. I want more than anything to live my life with the one I love because it is sharing my life with that special person that means the world to me. Sharing my life with the one I love makes me the happiest person on this planet. I say this knowing that I am just one person. I am one person who loves one of you more than words could ever describe or explain. I am one of the people that loves those of you that come here each and everyday. Be here if this helps you make it to tomorrow. Many people have a hard time coping with knowing a loved one wants to die. As you know these people can do and say the wrong things out of fear and frustration and the wrong time. Please know that it doesn't mean they don't care or won't miss you. To those of you with whom i've spoken- I WOULD miss you. To those of you whom I've yet to meet-I WOULD miss you too. I WOULD miss you because there were soo many things you were going to share with the world and I wouldn't have a chance to experience the ways you would continue to touch the world. Fight to hold on for another day for yourself and the people who love you. When you wake up tomorrow try to do the same. Please know that each day you will bring joy to the ones you love because they have the opportunity to spend more time with you. Everyone is like a pebble dropped into the middle of a pond. Every pebble creates ripples that will travel to the edge of the water and stop only because the ripples meet the land. Please know that each of your respective ponds is the size of an ocean. You have so much to share with the world. Let the ripples stop when they stop by themselves. Please don't give up. You can do so much that you've not yet done. You make the world what it is-so make it a place you would like to stay and share it! Share it with the ones you love and those who love you and those who will love you that you've not yet met. Each life has its place. Alive.