both dead and alive until somebody opens the box
lately ive just felt really unwanted. ive been trying to jump back into relationships despite the abusive one im recovering from, since my therapist thought it would be a good idea. whenever i ask somebody, they never feel the same way. when i finally thought i found someone, he turned out to be aromantic and only wanted something platonic. i feel really unwanted and shit because the only time someone wanted me was so they could abuse and manipulate me and chip away my self-worth. i feel pathetic.