is the fear of not making to heaven to be with my wife and infant daughter. If someway some how I could be told to fear God I'd let that <Mod Edit - Acy - Methods> do the work I can't do. I feel like Jobe in the Bible. Satan has hit me time and time again as God sits back and laughs his ass off. Well u know what I'm about to say screw you God and roll the dice. You haven't helped me any at all and now when you take the only thing worth living this F'ed up life for from me I'm to trust you? F U God, F U and your Virgin Mother *****.