The only thing that makes me feel better is knowing that the person didn't really love me, so there is really no point in continuing to love a person who doesn't love me. For sooo long, it has been so hard for me to accept that. Thinking about my ex, I realize that. Now, I know that in 3 weeks, I will be able to go to Italy with confidence and not even blink an eye when I see him. As for the online guy I was planning on running to, I now am starting to see him for who he really is and he is just not that into me. At the end of it all, I think meeting him is pointless. I am no longer in such a rush to be with somebody. I need to work on me and I am happy to say that this past Monday, I met up with a contact of mine and I might be doing some stuff in dance again, possibly even teaching. I am going to be training next week, so maybe there is something I can do to work on me.