So now I think I may have done a bad thing. After having and opiate addiction, along with binge drinking, and quite a heavy dose of anti-depressants, I may have pushed myself too far. Today I took my usual meds, wellbutrin & celexa, with traxzodone and either seroquel or klonopin to induce sleep, a friend recommended kava kava. Willing to try just about anything, I took 1200 mgs kava kava supplement along with two shots of whiskey and a couple of beers. Just trying to relax. So much zaniness go on around me, I feel as though I am in a dreamlike state looking for a door out. Not sure about the kava kava addition, but feeling very low right now. Havent really had food, except a coffee this morning and some nicotine inthe afternoon. Not sure what I want or need right now. Sleep or probably shouldn't drive. Its only been 15 minutes since I took the pills and I feel like I am really going to crash and burn. My therapist is my safety plan, but the weekend calls seem intrusive. My friends have no real idea of what i am on or going through. And the thought of a rope seems somewhat more sensible than it did this morning. Anyone have any ideas here? lost in the ooops, what did i do?