I feel so much pain, i just cant imagine how is it possible to live with it i dont take any meds, maybe if i could, it will make this easyer. But i cant Im thinking about my feauture, there are things i want to do but i know that even if ill do what i want, ill stil suffer and i wount be able to enjoy it. Every time people successuly do the things thay want to do like to pass exams, or to find a good job, or a nice girl, when thay do it thay feel good about themselfs, it makes them stronger and happyer. But i cant feal any joy in anything, only pain, and more pain i cant feel happy, i didnt felt happy for so long! I forgot how its like! What the point to fight, if i cant enjoy the results? What the point to race, if even if ill take the first place i wount be able to feel any joy or happynes? *sigh* Im broken, im so broken!