My girlfriend of 6 years broke up with me three days ago out of nowhere. We had plans of getting married, having kids, growing up and getting old with each other. She has been my entire world. We've been a long distance apart for the last two years but I flew to see her regularly. She was apart of every one of my goals that I ever wanted, talked about the future all the time, and now she is just done with me. She says she doesn't feel the same way about us anymore. The pain has been so deep that I haven't been able to sleep or eat but a couple hours because of exhaustion. I try to talk to people, but nothing makes me feel better. They can't possibly understand what it feels like to hurt this bad, to not be able to get the knives out of my heart, not knowing how long it would take, if ever, to get over her. I spent most of last night researching the most painless way of killing yourself and it made me realize that I think I could actually do it. Send everyone that truly cares about me a letter and<mod edit- methods> in a random place. I want to so bad, and I don't know if this place will help with the pain. I guess I should try.