I have cut myself a lot this evening, but I want to cut more. it's not enough. The pain isn't enough. The pain is NEVER enough. I've been crying constantly for the past hour or so and I want to cut more. I'm fed up of everying, hurting so much inside I can't take much more of it. i phoned my boyfriend and I spoke to him and he didn't talk much back at all, he wasn't very supportibve or anything and I said, "i had better go soon", and straight after he said "ok bye". WTF?!!! Why. Why couldnt hge wait to get rid of me??? I already felt worthless and pathetic without him having to do that. Not that I should blame him, who the fuck would want to talk or even CARE about me anyway. I hate myself. Hate. Hate. Hate. Hate. Hate. REALLY HATE MYSELF. I want to cut more I'm fed up of this shit.