I have not been on here in awhile. I was not getting any better but I wasn't getting any worse until a few months ago. Trying to control my mood swings has become too hard. I recently started to get help. I'm on medication and in group therapy. But I feel like its all a waste of time. I feel tired and my suicidal thoughts and urges to hurt myself are very intense. Is this just my mind adjusting to medication? Has any one else had worsening feelings after starting treatment?