Having suicidal thoughts and crying. I was once someone full of life, plans, dreams and most of all ....hope. Like most people in my country I had music in my soul and a smile on my face. I had hope. Then he came and finally made me understand that I am nothing,a nobody, just a thing nobody wants. But he just showed me what life had been telling me all my life, all the time but I refused to see because I had hope in my heart and I believed I would be fine, I believed that if I was a good person, if I had a positive attitude I'd be fine, alone, but fine.I was wrong.