The past few days have been really awful, I've been so down and have been hearing voices, nothing too serious but I know it's a sign of myself feeling worse than normal. All the voices have been derogatory towards me, mainly over my weight and appearance, as they always are, encouraging self harm but I have managed to suppress this, I find the only things that really help this are exercise and talking to a specific friend, but due to gastritis and IBS I've found it difficult to exercise as it causes cramp and vomiting, and last night when I was really down and home alone, my friend was out for his mate's birthday and so I didn't want to bother him. I was awake until 4 am and then woke up every hour until about 10:30. I lay in bed until about 3pm, I was awake and I wasn't particularly sad, just the point of moving at all seemed pointless to me and I was crying on and off just because I feel so incompetent. I just feel shite really.