I have in my possetion the perfect poison, if i take it it will almost certainly kill me, quickly and painlessly while i sleep, if no one discoveres me for a few hours then it will be too late for them to save me, and i doubt it would take more than about 8 or 9 hours before i actually died. If no one discovered me for a couple of days you wouldn't even be able to tell i'd taken it. It's calling out for me to take it, not all the time, but sometimes, like now when i feel so low, so low that i know dieing would be better... I haven't yet, I don't know if thats cos i'm strong enough to resist it, or not strong enough to go through with it. I can't name it here because we can't discuss methods, but i'm sure a few can work out what it is... because the irony of it all is I can't throw it away, I can't remove the temptation, I need it, I depend on this drug to live. For so long i'd been searching for... desperatly hoping that i could just fall asleep and not wake up, now i can... I don't know what to do.