I'm never sure if my thoughts should go in Let it out or here or somewhere else. I'll trust the mods to decide if it should be moved. So I'm sure plenty of us have heard the term, it's all about timing (or something along that line). Well it really is. As of Friday Feb. 15th I have no school again till Feb. 25th. This is because my University is on reading week. The knock off version of spring break in the middle of fucking February. This means I have over a week in which the very few people I know, have gone home and I'm left sitting in my room with nothing but my mind to keep me company. Add to this the fact that I have 4 midterms once the break is over and 4 projects to complete shortly after them. All of which I have no motivation to do them other than I don't want to be seen as stupid (although with a 73 average I'm sure I already am). Then add to that, that on Friday I will be turning 23. And for the 4th year in a row, I'll be spending it alone and doing absolutely nothing. This week is really shaping up to be the perfect storm in terms of triggers. Loneliness, failure and getting older (I know 23 is not old but when you have as much life experience as a 6 year old, it feels like a long time). Bought a case of beer on Thursday and as of Saturday night I have 6 beers left. Worst part is that even drinking an average of 6 beers an hour doesn't get me drunk, just relaxed.