This is going to be an odd one, need peoples take on it if nothing else, but wasn't sure where to post it. Basically, yesterday, was feeling fairly crappy, nothing new there. Just wanted to disappear and all that, and was talking to a really close friend of mine on msn at the time, who has been there for years and all, has struggled with plenty of stuff themselves, so gets it, gets how i feel at those times. They are always very supportive of me, as i am of them, and they told me that they knew that i would get through this. I didn't feel like it at the time, so i asked them how they could be so sure of that... Took a bit of time for them to put it into words, but they told me. Was just about the most powerful thing someone has said to me for a very long time. One thing in particular they said really hit me. I mean, we are all here to help each other, as well as get help ourselves, lend each other strength when we need it. But this person didn't just say that, they said that they would make me keep going... if by their willpower alone, they could stop me. Truth is, for some people, that wouldn't work, they'd say its their choice, their life, and no-one else could stop them. But for me... it was so comforting, that... well someone would fight that hard for me. Now, the problem is, and its one of the things i hate most about myself, that since last night, when they said it, my brain has been trying to deconstruct it, pull the words apart, and find some other interpretation of the words, i guess something that would let me think that they didn't mean anything, so i didn't have to take them and think about them, and feel good about them. So far... well its not been able to... which leaves me in the annoying position, of feeling really confused and conflicted in my head, over something positive, that my mind will just not stop and accept. And... well its the same each time it happens i guess, when someone says something positive, i try to deconstruct it, try to make it mean nothing to me, not through conscious choice, just through how my brain naturally works or something. So ladies and gentlemen, i'm in a fucked up state right now because i feel good, but my mind wont let me. :smile: yes, its completely odd, annoying, and probably not even worth making a post over, but... its something i would like to change somehow, and i am so so sick of my head being like this.